Beginnings

I went into graduate school kicking and screaming against the Lord, but like always- He won out in the end. Once I was in, however, it felt like I needed to know what I would be doing after. The program only took a year and a half and by the end of my second month…

Catch and Release

One of the hardest things in my life is just letting things go. Not just the bad things in life, but the good ones as well. Four months ago, during a small group, someone noted how this profound statement impacted their life: Sometimes, God just lets things die. At the time, I was amazed by…

No Matter Where You Go, There You Are

I would guess that 80% of people who want to travel want to do so for reasons that have nothing to do with the outside world. We may say our purpose is to go and see the world, that we desire to know the earth we all live on in a more intimate way- but…

Shifts in Consciousness

Change is a funny thing. Sometimes it hits you all at once, the world spiraling out of control, throwing you into an ocean of metamorphosis. We tumble around in it, not sure which way is up and which way will take us deeper. I have been suspended in this storm before. We all have. They…

Welcome Back, Nothings the Same!

Coming back to Cambodia was an adjustment. I was not expecting to journey home so early on in my trip, and in my mind I would have been better adjusted before I did. It was my hope that after settling in, getting into some semblance of a routine, when I did visit home, it would…

An Allegory

But we are not here to westernize our fellow men. We are not here to tell them that their traditions are savage, their culture antiquated, or their lives lacking. We are not here to save these people from their own identity. We are here simply to help raise them up. Not from a place of…

There and Back Again

It has been a whirlwind these past 13 days, though unexpected journeys I often consider a joy. While this trip had its utter disastrous moments, it was also bolstering and reinvigorating. The chance to mourn together was vital in finding peace when it came to the passing of my grandmother. I will be forever grateful…

A Grief Observed

Life keeps on keeping on. An obstacle avoided, I look back fondly at the victory, I proceed to be distracted. Then out of nowhere SMACK, I’ve hit a sudden hurdle at full speed. The past week feels like I’ve been stumbling to regain my bearings after a collision course with a well known thing called…

Support

This week has reminded me of two very important things. The first, that we were never called to follow Christ alone. The second, I have been blessed with some of the most amazing and supportive Christian women I have ever known. It is drilled into us while we are young that it is important to…

It’s Off to Work We Go!

It is always nerve-wracking starting a new job. With my glorious tendency to overthink and overanalyze I often obsess over everything that could go wrong. Will my new co-workers like me? Am I going to be able to complete the tasks I am given? Will I be more of a detriment than a help? I’ve…

The Killing Fields

It was odd pulling up to the gates. The area is about 45 minutes outside of town. The buildings get shorter and the distance between shops and homes gets longer. I had yet to venture out on my own, I had been in Cambodia three full days at this point, and so my nerves were…